Monday, December 22, 2014

Makeup Monday - Marsala Pantone's Color Of The Year 2014

Pantone's Color of the Year 2015 - Marsala.

I am so excited about this years color, and let me tell you why.  It is red.  Not fire engine red, not wine red, but blood red.  It looks like red, wine and brown had one magical night and this is what the result was.  Now I may be bias for two reasons. 
  1. My nick name ever since I can remember has been Red.  I answer to it.  It is a part of me.  It is something that I allow to minorly define me.  
  2. It is my favorite color.
  3. I am part Goth, so if it is not black, and it is not grey, it therefore must be either red or purple.  Preferably red.
  4. I am a red head.
  5. My daddy is a red head.
  6. One of my favorite people ever is a red head (yes Blaze, this be you). 
Okay I thought I would only have two... see how much I adore red??

Other than these reasons, I usually never pay a color of the year to sway my color palate.  I usually find "The Color of the Year" juvenile in color.  Lets go back a bit and you will have a better chance of catching my drift.

  • Pantone's Color Of The Year 2014: Wild Orchid

Okay, this color I do like.  But can you mix it with cold and warm tones alike?  you can but who has that much blending time?!  Plus to me it kinda looks like a bubblegum color.

  • Pantone's Color Of The Year 2013: Emerald

Barbie's Christmas tree.  That is all I see.  Not Irish eyes smiling, not the deep green emeralds of Ali Baba treasure... Barbie's fake ass plastic Christmas tree.

  • Pantone's Color Of The Year 2012:Tangerine Tango

This is where all of those nasty florescent orange lippies came from.  2012 I blame you and your ambiguous orange color named after a dance.  And the tango??  Looks more like a feisty flamenco to me.

  • Pantone's Color Of The Year 2011: Honeysuckle

This is a gorgeous color, on any one but a red head!  Really, I love this color but it only looks like I have some kind of skin condition if I wear it.  Probably because my skin tend to lean to the pink side it was a sad color for me.

  • Pantone's Color Of The Year 2010: Turquoise

I LOVE TURQUOISE! Once again the color fought with my skins pigmentation.  Only this time made me look about 3 hours dead.  And jaundice.  How can a pink skin tone turn yellow? Apparently you can achieve that color miracle with turquoise makeup and a red head.

Have you seen the trend here with all of these sugary confectionery lover Barbie dream colors.  Give me a color you can lighten or darken.  Give me a color you can wear to the theater.  Give me sophistication.  the past 5 years have been a cheerleaders dream, and unfortunately I was never the cheerleader type.  I was a HUGE grunge kid in the early '90's so that might explain it.

I am mostly thankful that I can stop purchasing ruby blushes to use as eye shadow.  The lady at the makeup counter at Walgreen's has always given me the stink eye, and I assume this is why. With the new incoming deluge of Marsala colored eye and lip sticks will only prove that I was a decade ahead of the trend... believe me I am just as shocked as you.

Expect to see a return of the 1990's grungy make up that sports an ever autumn eye with a dark lip and no facial contouring with a few updated Geisha Girls this year.  I know I am excited as hell, and plan to be among them well as!

With that and a look back at all of the colors this century so far, I will leave you my Beloved Makeup Minions.

 Always remember to be gentle to yourself, and each other.

Friday, August 1, 2014

Tutorial Tuesday - Saying Goodbye To The Best Ginger I Know

How to say goodbye.  

This past weekend I had to say a fond farewell to an amazing friend.  He is moving to Seattle Washington from La Crosse Wisconsin.  I whole heartedly believe this is an excellent life decision for him, and a perfect way to create a healthy life for himself and eventually his son as well.  However, being selfish on my part, I hate to see him leave.  He really is the only person I can truly say, does not deserve to leave this way.  Let me explain that last statement.  

Let us call my friend "J".   

I met J about 15 years ago at a night club in Minneapolis called Ground Zero.  He was a bouncer/bar back, and my friend L.J. and I went to this club every Thursday.  Before we knew his name we just referred to him as our 'Zerker" (as in berserker) and little did we know how fitting it was.  This magnificent ginger of a man fights for his friends with a ferocity rarely seen now days.  He also knew EVERYONE.  I mean everyone.  Any state, any country, there are (or were) people that called this man their friend, and they were damn lucky if they called him friend.  He is a writer and lives a lusty life known to most writers.  And shares generously, this lusty life of his, with all the people's he knows and even with some he does not know.  

This man also saved my life, literally.   Now there is no way on earth he could have known my plans, but he called me on the day I had planned to off myself and would not take no as an answer to his invitation of spending the day with him talking and hanging out for the day.  I went.  As I said I did not have a choice.  We talked, we laughed, we (okay just me) cried.  It was a good day.  a cathartic day.  And after that day, I could not feel so alone again, ever.  Needless to say my suicidal plans disintegrated.  Granted I am a cutter, that still happened, but I sold my gun, never thought of that place in the forest where I planned to shoot myself, and decided to enter the realm of the living once again.

And he did this for any soul, at any time.  He remembers birthdays.  He will join your game regardless of how small and silly it is.  He will drive through state after state should you need a shoulder to cry on.  He is one of the best men I have ever met, and I can not express how lucky am having met him.

A couple years ago, he divorced his first wife, and married his second.  Many, nearly all, of his friends turned their back on him for doing this.  Even though he was abused and more than unhappy with his first marriage... they believed he should stay with someone that was horrible to him, just because they had a son together.  His second wife turned out to not be the caliber of person J was.  After 7 months of married life, she left him for one of his closest and longest friends.  Such a terrible betrayal by his second wife and his married friend.  I am so proud of him and how he overcame that tremendous hurt.

These past few months, dramatic things seemed to rule his seemingly shattered life.  Most of his old friend still actively trying to destroy any solace he may find, turning them into enemies that knew all to well where to cause the most damage.  

I am sure dark thoughts were the ruling force of his day to day life, even though he did not share his thoughts during this time. 

When he told me he was moving to Washington,  I panicked.  I don't know why.  Probably me subconsciously being incredibly selfish and thinking that now instead of driving the 3 hours from Minneapolis to LA Crosse it would take so much longer to drive any time I wanted to see his face.  My second thought was, ecstatic.   He can shed all of his pain and sorrow and endeavor to create a new life with out all the setbacks plaguing his best attempts to do that very thing here.  He can find new friends there. He can find better friends there.   Friends that will not hold his past against him.

I love this man as my brother, literally.   I feel love for him like I have for my blood siblings.  I want his future to be as bright and bold as he is.  I want his days to be legendary and his evenings to be epic.  I want his life to be fair and just.  I want a smile on his face and love to warm his heart.  So this is the best thing for him.  

It was not fair the way he left.  So many people he happily sacrificed for and aided in desperate times were not there to see him off. There should have been leigon there to send him off, and even more to wish him well.  But I was.  B was.  Matt was.  Devon was.  Group three was.  And we are the people he had stayed here too long for.  

We love you J.  Now spread those phoenix wings of yours and soar.  We are still here to cheer for you, waving our hands in the air like idiots desperate for you to look down and see us.  Don't look back with sadness, just know there are people that want your company and will feel the loss if you.  We still survive in this frozen wasteland and we still call you friend.

Missing your face all ready, brother.  And your face is a good one to have.

Sunday, July 13, 2014

Sisterhood Sunday - Jody's Surgery

This has been a miraculous end of my week.

Last Thursday, I brought my mother in law-ish (her son and I have been dating for about 10 years) to the hospital for a full knee replacement.  All of us expected her to not make it through surgery.  Man. We. Were. Wrong!

Not only did she do fantastic, she was walking relatively pain free, 2 hours after surgery.

It is so amazing how far the medical field has come just in the past 20 years.  What would have been a terrible and traumatic surgery with months of recovery time has been condensed into a 2 hour surgery and a 3 day hospital stay.  Granted recovery still needs to happen but she was walking, not only the same day, but 2 hours after they replaced an entire joint!

I cried when I saw her not only pain free, but walking AND smiling pain free.  It has been years since she has been able to walk without limping.  And there she was, excited to walk and asking to go further!

I am so happy for her.  The past year she has been in agony.  She could barely stand from a sitting position.  I have no doubt she will be running circles around me as soon as she is okay to go back to the gym!

Jody, I love you lady.  You and your doctors and nurses have managed to perform some plainly astonishing things, and all in a mere 3 days.  I look forward to walking and chatting with you, and yes, even working out at the gym and having you totally thrash my butt.

With that, I will sign off for the night.  It has been an incredible few days and I am exhausted, physically and emotionally.  So I am going go to bed early and sleep like the dead.  Until next time, be kind to yourself, and each other.

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Weight Loss Wednesday - Almond Joy Bites

I feel like I talk about Miss Laura in almost every post... well she is quite amazing!  This is something she left at my door one day for a get well pick me up when I was having a bad tummy day.  So delicious!  And no added sugar?!  I have to say, it did make the day more tasty!  I believe she found the recipe on pintrest.  You can find the original recipe here.  I am glad she did!  Full of fiber and easy to make (and no baking so my stove does not heat up the house.)  Here is what you will need.

Almond Joy Energy Bites

2 cups dates, I buy the ones that are chopped up and soak them in warm water to make them softer. The original recipe calls for Medjool dates, but if you soak your dates, they are indistinguishable. If you use the Medjool dates, just make sure you remove the pits, or that they are pit free.

2 cups almonds, I use sliced, but any kind will do.

1/2 cup shredded coconut

1/2 cup unsweetened cocoa powder

1 Tbsp. coconut oil

1 Tbsp. vanilla extract, yup I spilled.

1/2 tsp. almond extract (optional)

Add dates and remaining ingredients to a food processor. Pulse a few times to combine, then use a rubber spatula to scrape the sides of the bowl. Blend the mixture for about 3 minutes, or until the mixture has moved past the crumbly stage and begins to clump and stick to the sides of the food processor.  If you need it to be a little more tacky add a teaspoon of water.

Use a spoon or small cookie scoop to measure out a tablespoon of dough (or your desired size) and roll it into a ball. If desired, roll the ball in a bowl of coconut flakes. Or just set it aside to eat as-is. Repeat with the remaining dough. I freeze mine and thaw out 3-9 at a time!
Store the energy bites in an airtight container for up to 2 weeks.

Makes so many!

Oh, and these are chock full of fiber.  Unless you are constipated I would try and eat only 3.

I may not post for a couple days since my mother in law-ish is having knee replacement surgery in the morning of the 10th.  Hopefully I will be able to make a post, but if it does not happen, now you will know why.

Until next time, be gentle to yourself and each other.

Tutorial Tueday - Collaboration Jewelry, Head Chain

My True Love Vintage provided me with all of my materials today.  She is an awesome mother of two, and loves to shop for vintage items.  Most of my re purposed jewelry components have come from this amazing personal shopper/vintage maniac.  Please check out her etsy store!  If you ever need anything she could be a personal shopper or vintage picker for reasonable price.  Plus I just love this woman to pieces!!
My True Love Vintage, Laura

Today, I went to her place to help her cook for her amazing elder daughter's birthday party.  I figure she is going to hand me a bowl and a mixer, instead she handed me a bag of goodies to go through...and some a few items she wanted (I thought mistakenly) made into a head piece for her.

Shut the front door.

Heck, hand me a few things to play with and I will make you anything I can! So, I guess the me helping is making her a sparklie for her daughters party tomorrow. I am totally her girl, so I dig right in!

Here are the components she provided.

2 types of gold chain
A couple of gold focal pieces

Two Egytianesque post earrings with faux marble stones
An awesome gold hammered shoe buckle

The shoe buckle I ended up not using for this piece.

First, I worked on the post earrings.  I took my round nose pliers.

I just curled the straight pierced earring post into a, lack of a better description, attached jump ring.

I then made two sizes of jump rings out of my 20 gold wire from J Rings Glass in Saint Paul. I no longer purchase my wire anywhere else, because it is simply the best I have found and have been disappointed by the wire I have purchased online.  Now, if I want to upgrade to sterling silver for my jewelry adventure, I will have to do my research and find a reputable store.  Right now though, this is what I use.  It i probably gold plated copper or brass but when worn it does not look like the gold rubs off.

I used my step pliers for this.

I used the 2nd smallest (top left) for the smaller jump rings, and the 4th smallest (middle left) for the larger jump rings.

I then decided where I wanted the two earrings,  I wanted them to fall right onto my temple area.  So I then took a piece of the finer chain an measured straight across my forehead.  It was my preference to make it about 6 inches.  Then with two of the larger jump rings (I first used the smaller one but found that I could fit almost all of the chains into a larger one), I attached the chain to the earrings.

Next, I needed to to figure out how to anchor the piece.  Thinking of Betty Page's fringe, I decided making a triangle thats point hit just at the crown would be perfect.
Betty Page and her trademark fringe

Map of head
To measure this part I measured from one temple to the top of my crown.  5.5 inches.  Then I doubled it to make the third side of the triangle.  Brow to brow is the 6 inch piece, temple to top of crown 5.5 inches, then the last side of the triangle 5.5 inches to the other temple.
The crown triangle

I then cut a small chain that would attach the side draping chains to the tip of the triangle anchor that touches the crown of the head.  Attaching it to the crown chain by pulling the crown chain through a large jump ring, and then i took a small ring and put it through the first link in the back connector chain, then I attached the small ring to the large ring.  This helps make it more mailable and not strictly for one sized head, and lets the owner fit it to their head, and to adjust it to where it is most comfortable for them.  The length of this chain was determined by connecting the top of the crown to the top of the nape.  For my design, I chose the length to be 4.5 inches.  Then thread a large ring through the last link or the connector chain.  This is where you will attach the side drapeing chains.

The large ring moves all along the top of the Y for fine tune adjustment
Side view
Back view
Now for the sides!  The way I chose the length of the side draping chains was to attach a chain to the back connector chain at the top of the nape, adjust it at the temple ornaments and draping it until I liked the length.  I then cut the length and let it fall straight down.  I then attached another chain to the bottom of the connector chain and cut it exactly the same as the first chain, making their lengths identical.  My shortest, in the smaller chain was 9 inches, I then attached each one to their corresponding temple ornament through the large jump ring. Then I took a length of the bigger chain and did the same thing.  I cut mine at 11 inches.  Then lastly I took a length of the small wire again, I cut this at 13 inches and connected it in the same matter as for the previous two.  And now it done!

Now I liked it better this way, probably because I have fringe and thought a more decorative brow piece would be a waste, but both Laura and B liked it better with the more ornate chain.  This is how I measured that one.

Seeing as the brow chain is 6 inches and my brow ornament is 2 inches long, I just needed to do some simple math.  6÷3=2
6 inches cut into 3 parts means each piece needs to measure 2 inches.  I cut the chain into 2 inch lengths, replaced the middle chain with the ornament chain and connecting it with small jump rings.  And now the second version is done!

Hope you like this tutorial!  Have any ideas for things you wanna see made?  Email me or leave a comment below.

Until next time, be gentle to yourself and each other.

Tuesday, July 8, 2014

Makeup Mondays - Influenster And Aveeno VoxBox First Impression

I am so excited to say I received my first VoxBox from Influenster.  It is the #RadiantWithAVEENO VoxBox.

Before we start with my first impression, let me explain what Influenster and a VoxBoxes are.

Influenster is a community of trendsetters, social media masterminds, and educated consumers who live to give opinions of products and experiences. Influensters meet here to learn about new products from our favorite brands as well as review the products they already use in their day-to-day lives.

What is Influenster to me?  It is a place for me to give my honest opinion about products I use without anyone thinking my opinion has been bought. Influenster provides me new products to try and review for free, thus insuring two things, an honest and unbiased opinion, and new product that I have not used yet or never knew existed.  This last point is important to me because I do not leave the house much because of my agoraphobia. Influenster gives me a chance to stay informed on all the new and hot products without the anxiety and panic of going out to buy something that is either not worth the trouble, or something I would not otherwise try.  It also provides me peer reviews.  All in one place.  LOVE IT!

What is a VoxBox? It's a box filled to the brim with the hottest products from the brands you love!  A VoxBox might showcase an exciting product from one brand – or it might be a box filled with multiple products for you to test & try.

What a VoxBox is to me?  It is a box with a new product to be vocal about.  This first box had a product that I did mot know existed from a company I know well and love.  I can not tell you how excited and happy I am to test and review this and future product. 

My first voxbox is Aveeno's #RadiantWithAVEENO VoxBox.  It contained a single 1.1 fluid ounces (32mL) Aveeno® Positively Radiant® Targeted Tone Corrector It is one of their total soy complex formula.

The box arrived via USPS
Opening the box
Product card front

Product card back
It is a very generous amount

Okay, first impressions...

I love the product packaging.  I am a sucker for the mint green with ivory combination.  The tube is a durable quality, not just flimsy plastic, more like a tooth paste tube that remains compressed when squeezed.  I like that because that means you waste less product towards the containers end.  One of my favorite things ever, it comes sealed.  The seal is a small foil seal.  This means the world to me because I have a lowered immune system.  Now, I do not necessarily mean a whole lot when a product is sent to me, but it is if I purchase something in a store. I usually spring more for a properly sealed product that is not swimming in Lord knows what.  I really do not need a skin infection from someone I have never even seen.

Sealed FTW!!!!
Upon opening the product, I found it to have a very nostalgic scent.  It reminds me of the lotion my mom and Grammy used on us girls when we were children.  I usually avoid scents, but this one is so very pleasant to me that I want to put it on my face!  Not usually my first thought since I have ultra sensitive skin.  Trusting the Aveeno name, I dive right in.

I squeezed out a portion the size of a pea.  It is the consistency of a lotion that is on the more liquid size.  I pat it gently into my face where I have alot of redness as well as freckles.  Normally I love my freckles, but for the sake of this product testing I put it right on those babies.

I have a ton of redness in my cheeks and a big patch of red on the bridge of my nose from my bipap mask that I have to use every night.
Here is a before picture.

I am going to use this goo every morning and every night without any of my other face goo.  I usually use a moisturizer but can go without it for the sake of a proper testing.

This product was not purchased by me.  It was sent to me to give a unbiased opinion on.  I did receive this product for free.  In my review I will include price and locations you can find the product reviewed. I will also tell you if I plan to purchase it myself.  If I did not finish the product, I will give it to someone as a gift.  I will seek no monitory compensation for the product.

With that I will be off to the grocery store.  If you have any questions please email me, or leave a comment below.  Until next time, be gentle to yourself, and each other.

I received these products complimentary from Influenster for testing purposes.

Monday, June 30, 2014

Makeup Mondays - Information and Subtle (for me) Summer Look

First, I would like to apologise for being lost for a week.  My parents came into town and life happened.  Including my amazing little sister, Mikki's housewarming!  I am so so proud of her!  Her new home is gorgeous, and fits her so well!
Mikki, me, and Mom.  You can not take us anywhere.
Second, before we delve into makeup, let us take a few moments to work on inner beauty.  I have 3 YouTube videos/channels I wish to show you.  You may not be an introverted plus sized girl with anxiety issues like myself, but there is no harm in educating yourself.  This way you can ensure that you will not harm others with ignorance.  Accidentally hurting someone, is still hurting someone.  Also, just a warning I have huge girl crushes on all 3 of these beauties.

#1. Scarlet Saint.  I love her so much!  Especially after I watched her life with anxiety post.  It is about 16 minutes long and worth every second, especially for the advice.  This post was exactly what I want this blog to be.

What do I do to deal with my anxiety, agoraphobia, and social anxiety?

Just about everything anyone has suggested.  Not all of it I see immediate results with, but I still do them in hopes that they will help in the long run.

A) I documented my thought cycle.  I did this so I can identify when I enter an anxiety thought cycle and attempt to stop the process before it gets too far out of hand.

B)  4 square breathing.  This helps me immediately, and it is my first go to technique. I find it effective after a couple minutes.  however, what works for me may not work for you.

C) Tai Chi.  Do not laugh but I use David Caradine's Tai chi videos.  The am/pm for beginners is my favorite.

D) Hot hot hot bath with music, candles, and relaxing essential oils.  Some times a glass of wine, or a beer.  This is really hard to do when you are not at home but after a really bad day with anxiety this does wonders for me.

E)  Write in my journal.  About EVERYTHING!  Even if I just destroy it immediately after.  This really helps me.  Once I get my thoughts out of my head and onto paper, my cyclical thinking tends to stop.  I do not know if it is just the release of the thoughts and/or feelings, or if it is a way for me to acknowledge that these are my feelings and now lets look at them objectively and not emotionally... honestly, I don't know much other than it seems to help me more than I ever thought it would.

F)  Medication.  Now I take plenty of medications, mostly for my physical illnesses and diseases, but the ones that I do take for mental reasons are vital for me.  Without them, I am always angry and say cruel and hurtful things, I am constantly crying and sometimes I don't even know why, incessantly have to fight the urge to cut cut cut and cut, and then sometimes it is darker...I can not count how many suicide notes I have written or how many ways I have planned a self inflicted finish to my life.  I believe the first one was when I was about 10.  Without my medication I have dissociative panic attacks.  Without medication it takes me 3-5 days to work up the courage to leave the house.  Without medication I have night terrors.  So yes, the medication. I take not only helps, it is kinda vital.

G)  Guided/visualization meditation.  Sometimes I can get it to work but if I am too far off into coo coo land, it does not do much.

H)  Long walks alone with loud music and mace.  The mace is because of my issues with PTSD from several attacks.  If I do not have it, I would not go.

I)  Take a time out with tea.  I do this before bed usually.  Helps me fall asleep.

J)  Constructive planning for the future.  If I have a plan, then I do not feel like chaos is going to rip everything to pieces.

K)  Sometimes just a good old ugly cry session.  I do mine in the shower.  Other wise My Darling would try to comfort me and fix the problem... and he can't.  So, I do it in the shower so he does not feel helpless.  I do not do this often, maybe 2-3 times a year.  And only after I have tried everything else because this is also a prime cutting opportunity.

I don't know if this helps you if you suffer from anxiety as I do, but hopefully it helps just one person, and not help anyone at all.

Before I forget, she also has a post called "Let's Chat About This 'Real Woman' Stuff", it is about respecting all shapes and sizes of women, for their beauty... and pretty much the etiquette on how to properly give a hurt free compliment.  Somehow I find this sad that she felt she need to make this video to correct peoples bad behaviour, but I can not say how happy I am that she did.  It shouldn't have to be spelled out for people it should just be common sense.

Anyway, if she ever reads this (highly doubtful, but maybe), THANK YOU!

#2. Vintage Or Tacky.  This girl is gorgeous!  And not only that, she speaks her mind.  What is there not to love?  She has posts on makeup, clothing, hair.  Seriously, I think I have watched every one of her videos.  Recently she did a post on "The Problem With Plus-Size Fashion".  

Now I am a plus sized woman, and I live in Minnesota.  It gets cold here.  REALLY COLD.  In the winter I still want to wear skirts... you try it at 29 degrees below zero with tights that will not stay up or are stretched to maximum thinness.  Last winter I wore a skirt twice, TWICE!!! I can not find a single pair that fit properly.  I buy the ones in "my size", what a joke.  

And pretty foundation and under garments... stuff for the boudoir... so ugly, or so not doing their job holding the girls up where they need to be, only causing pain and not making anything pretty, only uglier because it is the equivalent of tissue paper in a water balloon fight.  Is it too much to ask for function and be cute???  Yeah, cute.  I do not ask for beautiful, but cute would go a long way.  I would like to feel a little sexy in a dress and not feeling sexy because I know what is under it!  I am tired of feeling like the army designed my bras and panties.

And why do stores put the plus sized women's clothing in what I can only think of as the smallest table next to the kitchen in a restaurant?   And why is there only two types of clothing, hooker or nun?!

This is why I have started to make my own cloths.

Before I forget, in that post "The Problem With Plus-Size Fashion", she also has a contest to win a $100 gift certificate to ModCloth!  There are sooooo many wonderful things there, just go and window shop if nothing else.  For the contest go to the link above, her post and follow directions.  And while you are there, watch her videos! I can not say enough good things about this girl!

#3.  Goldiestarling.   Not only does she do some effing unbelievable special effect/Halloween/fantasy/celebrity. Inspired makeup tutorials, she is an introvert like myself.  Recently she made a video post about introverted people called Introverts Are People Too".

I have a handful of friends that try but really do not always understand my behavior as an introvert.  They really do not understand how awkward I feel in social situations, or when I suddenly need to leave a public place or party because I am overwhelmed.  Some of them do not understand my desperate need for "alone time".

She did such a fantastic job describing and explaining just about anything really needs to know about introverted people.  Go and watch the video, it is a must! It, like the video Scarlet Saint made about anxiety, is worth every second.

Love, love, love her.

Now I know there will be people out there that are going to say "you just need to expose yourself more to get used to it" about being an introvert with anxiety... to me it is like telling a diabetic that they can be cured by eating more sugar so their body can fix itself.

I also know that there will be people that say, if I am unhappy being fat, stop eating what you eat and exercise more.  I would love to loose some weight, but for ome people it is just not that simple.  First off diet, I am on one.  Mostly liquids and vegetarian.  Not to loose weight, but because of my health. If I could exersise more, I would.  I may not like being fat, and having no tools in wich to fix it.  However I do educate myself so that my ignorance can not do irreparable harm.  Unknowingly hurting someone out of ignorance is still hurting someone.

Now to step of the soap box and get into some fun!  On to the makeup!

First the eyes.

I labeled what colors went where... hope you can read it!

Then added the reddish brown from this to the crease as well, and used the glittery black to smudge into my liner.

I used this in blackest black on my waterline, lid, and to tight line as well.  Then buffed it out.

Then my liquid foundation, did a bit of powder to set after I used a dark brown eye shadow as contour.

Then a light pink shimmery lip.  I also smudged a bit on my cheeks, however it did not translate well in the photos, same goes for my contour.

I swatched it on my hand so you can see how shimmery it is.

Couldn't resist the obligatory goofy face.

 And now its done!  It may not be very subtle to you... but for me it is.

Had a blast playing today, and hope you love some of my favorite YouTubers!  Give them a thumbs up if you find their posts as wonderful as I did!!

Now I will leave you with a few pictures from this weekends festivities!
Me and Aunt Sue

Uncle Pat and Shalane

Me and Jim

Uncle Dennis and me

Uncle Mick and me

Me and Georgie

Me and Kim

Aunt Max and me

Great Aunt Margret, mom, and a Mikki photo bomb
Jenny and me

Shalane and me

If you need me, me and Neil will be hanging out with The Dream King...
So proud of this soldier cousin of mine! Go air born ranger!


My beautiful sister, Mikki.
Kiss, kiss, love my sis<3

Cu waiting patiently for some one to start the damn barbecue.

Aunt Linda and part of Uncle Harris

My other Uncle Dennis

Neil and mom playing with food
And last but not least...
Mean muggin' with My Darling, B
Sorry for all the pictures, but it was too fun not to share.

Until next time, be kind to yourself, and each other.